windows

...windows

i woke up early this morning
i've been waiting for so long for this moment
i quickly looked out through my windows
i glanced here and there
i looked left and right
but..
nothing
i saw nobody outside
seemed like all my neighbours were still fast asleep
floating in their fantasy world

i did some chores
i wiped my windows, swept the floor
and even put some decorations around my house
i wanted my house to look pretty and mesmerising
so that you'll feel comfortable when you come to visit me
just like what you always do almost everyday
i hope every visit will not be the last visit
because.. i enjoyed the fun, laughters, fights
that we had
but today was different
there was no sign of you
it felt awkward
waiting and waiting and waiting...

the sun was up, high...
beyond the height SHE could climb
i glanced through my windows
over and over again
nothing..
i saw some of my neighbours were out
doing their very own businesses
sharing the gossips with others
or just dropped by to say HELO.0
something about today...

i could see your house from afar
but i couldn't tell whether you are there
or you are OUT
i wish i had the guts to pay you a visit
but i am scare
the door was shut before me
this made me wonder

"what had happened to you?"
"are you alright?"

your silence made me wonder
could HAPPY be the reason of your absence?
or could it be that was actually the sign of IGNORANCE?
i NEED an answer
so i do not have to wait any longer

the cookies are now in the TRASH
the drinks are now in the DRAIN

i know i should go
lock all the windows
and the door, behind me
i am leaving...

just in case you might come for a visit
my house is no longer OPEN for you

because
i SIGNED OUT of the deal...

*shut down