Monday, October 19, 2009

When the heart begins to speak...

L.O.V.E at first sight...how far is the reliability of such statement?
Does love depends on how we judge someone by using our eyes?
Some say, love is blind...but how 'blind' could it be?
It is amazing when we start to like someone not base on his or her appearance but more on what they portray on their true skin. Someone 'wears' his or her life confidently...there is still flaw but when the heart speaks...
everything about he or she is flawless...
When we see someone just from the physical appearance, we might wonder, how long will this feeling last? Beauty is only skin deep...
There is nothing wrong about adoring someone for their good-looking-ness because God's creations are beautiful.
When the heart takes over the eyes' authority to 'see', that is when we knows that physical appearance is not everything. We start to see clearer. The world will be much more beautiful. We can choose not to see, and this is when the eye lids play their part...but we can't choose not to 'see' because our heart keeps beating till the end of our age...
When the heart speaks...some might carve a smile or burst out a laugh but some might weep over the invisible wound.


The heart has the veto control over our life but not the other way around...

Monday, May 11, 2009

rain

...rain (*flickr)

it rains outside...
usually we have a sunny, clear morning...

but today seems different
i guess my emotion IS does affected by the weather
this cool, chilly and cloudy morning reminds me of...

the good old times during my schooling years


usually, at the beginning of a new semester
in each year
of my schooling period
it will rain

rather heavily or just a little downpour

the raindrops outside the window of my school bus

the umbrella in my hand

symbolics~

today
the road is wet
the clothesline is empty

and so is my online-friends in my YM account

sigh!!

everybody is busy

i understand...
they have started their new college-life
now
a new journey begins
the rain is like a blessing

as an indicator of a new challenging life ahead


good luck!!!


...empty clothes line *flickr

Sunday, May 10, 2009

windows

...windows

i woke up early this morning
i've been waiting for so long for this moment
i quickly looked out through my windows

i glanced here and there
i looked left and right
but..
nothing
i saw nobody outside
seemed like all my neighbours were still fast asleep
floating in their fantasy world

i did some chores
i wiped my windows, swept the floor
and even put some decorations around my house
i wanted my house to look pretty and mesmerising

so that you'll feel comfortable when you come to visit me

just like what you always do almost everyday

i hope every visit will not be the last visit

because..
i enjoyed the fun, laughters, fights
that we had

but today was different

there was no sign of you
it felt awkward

waiting and waiting and waiting...

the sun was up, high...
beyond the height SHE could climb

i glanced through my
windows
over and over again

nothing..

i saw some of my neighbours were out

doing their very own businesses
sharing
the gossips with others

or
just dropped by to say HELO
.0
something about
today
...

i could see your house from afar
but i couldn't tell whether you are there

or you are OUT
i wish i had the guts to pay you a visit

but i am scare

the door was shut before me
this made me wonder

"what had happened to you
?"
"are you alright?"


your silence made me wonder
could HAPPY be the reason of your absence?
or could it be that was actually the sign of
IGNORANCE?
i NEED an answer
so i do not have to wait any longer

the cookies are now in the TRASH
the drinks are now in the DRAIN


i know i should go
lock all the windows
and the door, behind me

i am leaving...

just in case you might come for a visit

my house is no longer OPEN for you

because

i SIGNED OUT of the deal...

*shut down

halo



...walls i built


Remember those walls I built
Well baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
Woah...

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo)
Halooooo ouuuu
Halooooo ouuuu
Halooooo ouuuu
Ouuuuu ouuuuu ouuuuu

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo


*BEYONCE*


nothing ELSE i can say


Cherry cherry
Boom boom
Gaga

Boy we've had a real good time
And I wish you the best
On your way, eh eh

I didn't mean to hurt you
I never thought we'd fall
Out of place, eh eh

I have something that I love long long
But my friends keepa' tellin' me
That something's wrong
Then I met someone
And eh, there's nothing else I can say

Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh
I wish he never looked at me that way
Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh

Not that I don't care about you
Just that things got so compliqué
Eh eh

I met somebody cute and funny
Got each other and that's funny
Eh eh

I have something that I love long long
But my friends keepa' tellin' me
That something's wrong
Then I met someone
And eh, there's nothing else I can say

Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh
I wish he never looked at me that way
Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh

I have something that I love long long
But my friends keepa' tellin' me
That something's wrong
Then I met someone
And eh, there's nothing else I can say

Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh
I wish he never looked at me that way
Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else I can say
Eh eh, eh eh

Eh eh, cherry cherry, boom boom

Eh eh, eh eh
Oh, yeah
All I can say is eh eh


*LADY GAGA*

"parking lots"

have you ever experienced the situation where you couldn't find any suitable parking lots in your driving life?

for example; you wanted to watch a concert at the town...you came early in order to find a suitable parking lot, near to the location of the concert, secure with bright lights minimizing the chances of your car being stolen / harmed by the immoral passers-by or your nemesis..however, you found out that you were not early enough to get the BEST parking lot. you ended up parking at the non-parking area, you broke the law; taking the risk of getting a ticket from the authority. maybe you'll park your car in the dark alley, exposing you and your car to DANGER... but you have no choice but to do so. you might end-up parking your car behind other people's car, blocking their car will cause traffic-jam and your car plate number might be announced by the host at the concert, asking you to move you car away...

"before we proceed to the next performance, i would like to ask the car owner of QSQ6591, to move your car away because your car is causing traffic-jam at the main entrance, thank you..."

you have no choice but to move your car away but hey! you'll missed all the FUN at the concert. then you'll have to go through the process of searching for a suitable, empty parking lot all over again. you drove around the parking areas over and over again and nothing...all WERE taken, and some were the parking lots built specially for the handicapped citizen. you were kind enough not to park your car at their lots. you did not want to mess-up them because despite the difficulties that you were facing, you still have the HEART to respect their needs. so, in the end, you'll take the trouble to park your car far, far... AWAY from the location of the concert. might be not the best parking lot but at least you didn't have to spent your entire night searching for parking lot. yea, and then you have to walk all the way to the concert...far away from the parking lot. then you'll talk to yourself.

"how lucky are those people that are able to find the suitable and safe parking lots for their car..."

Friday, May 8, 2009

da.6th.day.of.da.5th.month.of.da.18th.year

another special day in any people's life. as for me, yea, it's special but my day started pretty normal... i woke up late, as usual. it was Wednesday. first thing first, do some chores & prepare breakfast for me and my bro.

9am
Project Runway ~ channel 707
as usual, like any other ordinary day in my life, me and my bro watched our favourite show together. i couldn't share with you about the details of the show that day because i couldn't recall any specific details. but like the host, Heidi Klum said, in fashion; one day you're in, the next day, you'll out... hahahah

10am

Merlin ~ channel 702

yea, my favourite show! so, two hours watching tv non-stop. but during the break (advertisement), i made lunch for my bro since he went to school in the afternoon. yea, talking bout multitasking; i'm actually good at it. oh ya, the show was about the consequences to Camelot after the magically unicorn was killed by charming Prince Arthur... but as usual, in the end, he and Merlin managed to solve the problem and Camelot was back to normal and the unicorn came back to life...!

11am

after the show, i sign-up in YM. chat with someone...
then my dad called, asking me to get ready because he wanted me to company him to Premier; doing some shopping. after sending my bro to school, we went to Premier. then, like few minutes later, we went to my mum's coffee shop.

when it was time to fetch my sis from school, my dad and i went to her school and she was a bit pissed-off since i was wearing her white shirt.. hahahah!! when i arrived home, i immediately sign-up in YM and chat til my bezfren, Kayrell, asked me about our plan to hang out that afternoon. i agreed to go out but i have no idea to go where.

around 3pm
my fren arrived and called my sis. i didn't know why she didn't call me, then i walked down and got into the car. she asked me where do i wanna go. but i have no idea where to go so she said we go to Permai first. she said her ex-bf has something to talk with her. then i agreed to company her on her 'date'... but i was wondering why he wanted to meet her since they had pretty hard time before this but, i just sat in front seat and chatted with my fren the whole way to Permai.

around 4pm
we arrived at LAke GArden in Permai. that was the first time i went to the park. after she parked the car, we walked on the concrete route in the garden. she said the 'he' waited for her at one of the pondok in the garden. she called him asking where is he. we walked & talked all the way. finally, after walking for few minutes...(5-8min) she said we just wait at the last pondok in the garden by the lake because 'he' will come to the pondok and meet her there... few seconds later, before i even had the chance to sit, i heard a bunch of people shouting...'HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!'

darn! it was a surprise birthday party!! i never expected that my friends would do such 'crime'! hahaha!!! yea, then first i saw Leander; he was holding a cake, then i saw Adeline and Olive coming out of the bushes behind the pondok, where they hid!! first impression, i saw some candles were already melted...huh, wondering how long have they been hiding in the bushes.. i was still couldn't believe that they were willing to take the trouble to throw a surprise birthday party for me. so i was pretty touched and almost burst into tears, but i didn't... i'm a tough girl! hahaha!! after they sang common birthday song then i made some wishes...i blew the candles and cut the cake, ate, and gave it to my friends...bla3...! then; the real drama begins!!

i was standing in the middle of the pondok and was so 'naive'... i didn't expect what my friends will do next. suddenly i could sense something wrong since Adeline and Olive walked closer to me and i saw that they were holding something in their hand...!! Kayrell was filming the 'drama' using her phone. then, last thing i remembered...BAMMMMM!! EGGS!

Adeline & Olive were happily throwing uncooked chicken eggs towards me!!! oh no!! what kind of party is this? is this how they celebrate birthday party here?? i was like so shocked!! i managed to avoid some of their attacks... one the broken chicken eggs stuck in my hair together with the yolk!! yuck!! to make it worse, i saw Olive taking out a bag of flour from her bag and i was like screaming for mercy but no....they were too 'kind' to spoil the fun. and yea, the next thing i know, i was covered in flour...i regretted that i wore black shirt that day.. and, my shirt and my jeans were all covered in egg yolk and white flour...how terrible was that...?? with the smell.. ew! after minutes of food fight, we stopped and enjoyed the cake and our drinks.

minutes later, Larrisson and his friend, Fernandez, showed up. too bad... you guys missed the climax. hahahah!! then, when it was time to leave, we cleared the pondok, we tried...the pondok was still a big mess with egg shells, yolk and flour everywhere... then, Kayrell reached for the leftover cake and played with the icing.. hmmm...you know what she was going to do next, right?? FOOD FIGHT!! some icing stuck in my hair...i even attacked Olive and we both blame Kayrell for that.. then, i reached for the cardboard, to place the cake, with some icing on it and Olive was holding Kayrell-hard. Kayrell was hiding her face, exposing her back to danger!! then, splurt...! Olive wipe off the icing on the cardboard on her back!!! hahahah...

around 5pm
ok, no more fight! PEACE!! since Kayrell needed to fetch her aunt from Wisma Persekutuan, we had to leave. and..since i have no time to get clean @ change clothes...i had to walk all the back to the car park; accessorised with egg yolk, flour and cake icing. i had to pretend like nothing was wrong about walking in the park, full of people; as if i survived from an explosion in the kitchen and i had ignore all the residents that came to the garden for evening walk @ jog in the garden... all eyes on me!! darn! have to be 'muka tembok'..

around 6pm
after fetching Kayrell's aunt and sent her to their house in Merlin, we fetched Atak, Kayrell's cousin from her working place. then we went to Olive's place. there, i changed. luckily Kayrell was concerned enough to bring a pair of pants for me, she asked my sis to get it for her when she arrived at my house. then i put on the new shirt she and Peony gave me as my birthday present..
and on it written, 'DON'T MAKE ME HUG U'... hahahah

we went to sent Kayrell's aunt's car and rode on Olive's sis' car to have dinner at SCR. then i went home...my family had arranged a simple celebration for me too...&&& on top of my second cake, i saw a white F1 racing car.. hahaha!!

that night, i know how much my family and my friends LOVE me. i am so lucky. i got too much love for myself...literally.